Friday, November 6, 2009
Let us fix our EYES on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross,
scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
Today was Cannon's eye appointment. Unfortunately a day for grim news. We knew that there was something going on with Cannon's eye, his right one seems to be a little "lazy" and doesn't always go the same direction as the left one. We first noticed in back in July. We just thought that he would need a patch to cover the left eye, forcing him to strengthen his right eye. Worse case scenario we thought he would need glasses. However, my heart dropped when I heard the word "surgery". Our poor baby has to go through it again. It brought me back to the first month of his life. Being in the hospital waiting to hear he was okay...sitting in that OR waiting room several times waiting to see the face of the surgeon. Would he have a smile to greet us, or would we hear the words "I'm sorry"? Thankfully we got 5 out of 5, smiles with "He did well". I dread having to sit there while they intubate him again, put him to sleep again, cut on my baby, and wait for him to wake up. My mind has been running in circles today. I look at Cannon and just want to cry, I have apologized several times for what he has to go through. I wish I could take his place. I wish that he didn't have to go through all of this again. I wish and pray that this will go away. I have to keep reminding myself that this surgery is looked at as a simple procedure. How can you call anything that involves cutting into my baby simple? When your are cutting into or around his eyes, how is that simple?
I know I am rambling, and I know that it might sound silly that I have been so worked up about this. I guess I am just "talking" (writing) through my feelings. My faith is strong enough to get me through this. I know that the Lord will carry us through. I know that He will provide and comfort us. I know that Cannon will be okay. Please pray for me, and more importantly Cannon. I just thought that worse case he would need glasses. I am reminded that it doesn't matter how simple it may seem...PRAY! I didn't realize that I hadn't even prayed that today would be good news, that everything would have a simple answer. WOW!
So for details...we have none. I called Cannon's neurologist to get the name of a pediatric opthamologist in Ft. Worth, then gave it to the doctor's office here so that we could get an appointment there. They didn't call me back today, which means that she didn't hear back from the doctor in FW. Hopefully I will get a call on Monday. I am hoping that we will get into see the doctor very soon. When I get more information I will let you all know. Please continue to pray for us. And thank you in advance. Love you all!
Today was Cannon's eye appointment. Unfortunately a day for grim news. We knew that there was something going on with Cannon's eye, his right one seems to be a little "lazy" and doesn't always go the same direction as the left one. We first noticed in back in July. We just thought that he would need a patch to cover the left eye, forcing him to strengthen his right eye. Worse case scenario we thought he would need glasses. However, my heart dropped when I heard the word "surgery". Our poor baby has to go through it again. It brought me back to the first month of his life. Being in the hospital waiting to hear he was okay...sitting in that OR waiting room several times waiting to see the face of the surgeon. Would he have a smile to greet us, or would we hear the words "I'm sorry"? Thankfully we got 5 out of 5, smiles with "He did well". I dread having to sit there while they intubate him again, put him to sleep again, cut on my baby, and wait for him to wake up. My mind has been running in circles today. I look at Cannon and just want to cry, I have apologized several times for what he has to go through. I wish I could take his place. I wish that he didn't have to go through all of this again. I wish and pray that this will go away. I have to keep reminding myself that this surgery is looked at as a simple procedure. How can you call anything that involves cutting into my baby simple? When your are cutting into or around his eyes, how is that simple?
I know I am rambling, and I know that it might sound silly that I have been so worked up about this. I guess I am just "talking" (writing) through my feelings. My faith is strong enough to get me through this. I know that the Lord will carry us through. I know that He will provide and comfort us. I know that Cannon will be okay. Please pray for me, and more importantly Cannon. I just thought that worse case he would need glasses. I am reminded that it doesn't matter how simple it may seem...PRAY! I didn't realize that I hadn't even prayed that today would be good news, that everything would have a simple answer. WOW!
So for details...we have none. I called Cannon's neurologist to get the name of a pediatric opthamologist in Ft. Worth, then gave it to the doctor's office here so that we could get an appointment there. They didn't call me back today, which means that she didn't hear back from the doctor in FW. Hopefully I will get a call on Monday. I am hoping that we will get into see the doctor very soon. When I get more information I will let you all know. Please continue to pray for us. And thank you in advance. Love you all!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
why the missing posts???
Well, I am sure you are all wondering and becoming frustrated that I haven't posted in a while. I sincerely apologize. I have a post sitting in my account that is just waiting to be finished and posted. However, I can't get all of the pictures to upload and that's why it's just sitting there. So, I will go ahead and post it. Then try and post the missing pics later. I have them in chronological order, but the 9 month pictures aren't all there. Only the few in his camo overalls or from the photo shoot. We finish up with the pumpkin patch. I have Halloween pictures to post too! I'll do my best to get them up as soon as possible. I know that is what everyone wants to see anyway.
Cannon is now 10 months old, and he's growing so much. He definitely has not missed a meal, weighing in at around 21 pounds. Tomorrow we go see the eye doctor for his right eye. You may have noticed in some pictures that it seems to be "lazy" or "cross-eyed", we'll find out tomorrow what's going on. On his 9 month birthday Cannon rolled over from his belly to his back. He has it down but chooses to only do it when he has lots of encouragement, and a really good reason to look over his shoulder until he rolls. Cannon can sit up for a few minutes if he isn't too tired, but still wants to be carried around instead of entertaining himself in the floor. He has such a personality, his facial expressions are priceless. He can light you up with his beautiful smile or make you laugh with his disapproving frowns. He has the sweetest little laugh, and still has a soft cry even when he's very angry. In the last week he has decided to start waking up in the wee hours of the morning and won't go back to sleep unless you put him in bed with us, right in my face on my pillow. It's sweet, however frustrating, especially when I have to be up 2 hours later for work.
Overall Cannon is doing really well. I can't believe his is almost a year old. And tonight as a was catching up on the blogs I follow my heart broke for a mom I do not personally know, but have learned to love her family through her blog. Her year old son Stellan was born with a heart condition and has been having complications. They are in Boston tonight, he'll be admitted to hospital tomorrow. As I read tonight I was reminded of the night we first walked into the Ronald McDonald house after I was discharged from the hospital. Although I had Trey right beside me, it was so lonely knowing Cannon was not with us. We have come so far in such a short time. It feels like just yesterday. What a blessing he is. Thank you all for all your love and support, for getting us through the last year or so. As you read, please pray Stellan and his family. May the find peace in the Lord.
Now scroll down for what pictures I have.
Love to you all!
Cannon is now 10 months old, and he's growing so much. He definitely has not missed a meal, weighing in at around 21 pounds. Tomorrow we go see the eye doctor for his right eye. You may have noticed in some pictures that it seems to be "lazy" or "cross-eyed", we'll find out tomorrow what's going on. On his 9 month birthday Cannon rolled over from his belly to his back. He has it down but chooses to only do it when he has lots of encouragement, and a really good reason to look over his shoulder until he rolls. Cannon can sit up for a few minutes if he isn't too tired, but still wants to be carried around instead of entertaining himself in the floor. He has such a personality, his facial expressions are priceless. He can light you up with his beautiful smile or make you laugh with his disapproving frowns. He has the sweetest little laugh, and still has a soft cry even when he's very angry. In the last week he has decided to start waking up in the wee hours of the morning and won't go back to sleep unless you put him in bed with us, right in my face on my pillow. It's sweet, however frustrating, especially when I have to be up 2 hours later for work.
Overall Cannon is doing really well. I can't believe his is almost a year old. And tonight as a was catching up on the blogs I follow my heart broke for a mom I do not personally know, but have learned to love her family through her blog. Her year old son Stellan was born with a heart condition and has been having complications. They are in Boston tonight, he'll be admitted to hospital tomorrow. As I read tonight I was reminded of the night we first walked into the Ronald McDonald house after I was discharged from the hospital. Although I had Trey right beside me, it was so lonely knowing Cannon was not with us. We have come so far in such a short time. It feels like just yesterday. What a blessing he is. Thank you all for all your love and support, for getting us through the last year or so. As you read, please pray Stellan and his family. May the find peace in the Lord.
Now scroll down for what pictures I have.
Love to you all!
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